Reliving trauma: another anniversary of APS attack.

ISLAMABAD: Falak Naz has run short of words to reply to comments on the Facebook posts regarding her sons who lost their lives in the 2014 attack on Army Public School in the provincial capital Peshawar.

Falak Naz had three daughters and two sons, but now she does not have any son, as both of them were martyred in the attack.

Naz, a charge nurse at the Fauji Foundation Hospital, says that soon after knowing about the attack, she assumed that the army school was a secured location or expected the terrorists would just take hostage the students and then set them free after getting their demands met. However, when the media ran news of firing and shooting at the school, she ran towards the CMH in Peshawar.

"I nervously saw all the injured students, but didn't see my sons. But finally I saw a mobile phone in the hands of a soldier; I snatched it from his hands but there I came to know that my son had died, while I also came to know later that the other son had also been martyred," she said in a choked voice, as tears rolled down her cheeks.

She added that on the 16th of each month, the parents hold Quran Khwani at the school in memory of the young martyrs.

"There is not a single day that passes without sobs, since I am having the mobile phone with Facebook account of my younger son Saifullah Durrani and my husband is having the phone of our elder son Noorullah Durrani, with his Facebook ID too; each day we see their Facebook posts and cry," she said.

Sadeel Ahmed, a student, saw death up-close the day the terrorists attacked the school.

"I feel I am living a second life," says the 25-year-old, adding that the anniversary of the gory incident haunts him each year.

Recalling the terrorist attack, he said: "It was a normal day; we sat on chairs in the exam hall to attempt a paper. I was much delighted to see that the paper was easy that day, as I had prepared well for the exam; but about 10 minutes after we started our paper, the firing started outside the hall."

He said that they thought the firing might be part of the soldiers' training. "Later, some of our students left the hall and were immediately shot dead outside," he said. The teachers then told the students to lock the hall from inside.

Martyred teacher's father says the monuments they have set up are also too weak to be called monuments in true sense, while there has been no judicial inquiry into the incident

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